When love is in the air...

(back on popular demand)



and i'm single! It's not such a celebratory feeling! For the past month or so, it just seems to me like everyone around me has been going from single to double, or has at least been having close encounters with people of the, ahem, "opposite sex". But might I add that all such efforts on my part have ended in vain! and i'm not talking about the stupid "oh i'm in love in a minute and out of it the next" type of thing. I mean the real thing. That kind that people call you up to shed tears about!! Now for a single woman in a big city, there isn't a more sad thing in life than not being able to get someone. and more so when you know that there couldn't possibly be anything wrong/missing with what you're bringing to the table. However love, as we know it, seems to ellude. Of course there's that guy sitting on the table next to mine and he's looking over trying to see if i'm actually alone or waiting for someone, trying to see if there isn't a possibility that today might prove to be his lucky day. then there was that oh so cute guy who was oh so cute, and had an oh so cute (and just outta school) girlfriend in tow! "what is wrong with the world today.. why do they want to date chics half their age!?" and then there are the advantages... which seem to be staring me in the face now that most of my female companions are seeing someone or the other. well for one you always have someone to offer to take over the wheel (and even offer to drive you all the way back home sometimes), and then there's always some motivation for you to always be looking well groomed et al, and then there's always a someone to have your coffee with, to share details of business plans, someone else to plan a dinner or lunch or evening out. someone else to remind you of the little things you know you're bound to forget, and someone to always appreciate that you always remember the things that you tend to! the downside though as i have come to observe is that you have to constantly deal with accomodating someone else's needs, demands, and requirements into your own scheme of things. But isn't that the reason why two people get together in the first place, because they like to accomodate (read: allow) someone into their lives... so completely. well love's mysteries lie for me to unfold and discover alone for now (quite to my changrin) but i'm workin on it!!